Just things I was thinking about today:

~It wasn't even cold today- just windy and hella, ridiculously, super rainy.

~Mr. Peters said rain symbolizes something terrible, something depressing, and tears. (listening to Delicate and songs of that nature doesn't help.)

~Do you ever have those moments where someone asks you something and you respond one way but inside you're screaming a completely different answer?

Just finished baking Rock's quince cake. Uncle Ceaser's over, he always knows how to make us all laugh for hours. Josie and Pam are over too. I finished Upside Down Inside Out; one of those cheesey love stories- loved it! Haha. Oh and chem was fun today; The Usuals plus some went to the cafeteria for Free food! Yee, I was the "leader" X)
Isa: where's Rex?
Neal: He went back?
Anne: That blows our story!
-walk into class-
Isa: Psst! Rex isn't here!
Usuals: Hahahahah.

An earthquake just happened?.......
Theendisnearrrr!

Night kids~

p.s. During a passing period today- that was a total love story scene! Had the backround music, perfect mood, dedicated actors. Hahah. It was actually a really sad scene but whatever.

Is there an illness called overthinking?

I need meds. Haha. Okay, okay- that really isn't something to joke about. Neither are bipolarity (is that what it's called?) or schitzophrenia (i could never spell...). But seriously- whatthe....

Strangers: food and sleep. Sleep- I don't remember the last time I went to bed before ten thirty.  Food- "I eat because I'm unhappy. I'm unhappy because I eat." -Fat Bastard. HAHAH. But nah. I haven't been hungry in a while. Like- I'll eat because the food is there and it's "time" to eat but I haven't actually had an appetite appetite.

School is okay lang. <-- Filipino be easy. Math is a total fish -_- Don't you miss the days where math was "2 + 2" and not "g(x) = |x| + 2(3x+6)" ? Yeah- it takes like three pages to do one assignment. C'mon now...  Passing periods are always good. I try to change my route to class everyday, keep it "open for something new to come."

I'm lost in that particular department. I'm not sure what I'm doing there exactly. No, I'm not really looking. But no, I'm not waiting either. I'm just- uhm.. letting it find me. No Jasmin, there is no "knob turning."

I float. I don't stay in one place for too long. I sometimes Long to Belong in a group though. But all the groups seem established already. I feel intrusive. So I float. I like floating. I d on't like floating.

So the sleep thing- perfect example right here:

i Know i'm past exhausted. But I can't fall asleep.

 

"I'm fine,"

 

p.s. black sugar milk tea = party in my mouth.